We are back to this... after how many months???
I never create anything that I actually keep. Everything goes out the door.
But this time it's different.
I was in the process of creating some fatbook pages when my oldest came into my studio cause his dad told him he pissed off mom. Well, it all stems from my post months ago when my son figured I don't have a life. I thought everything was ok and once again we were back to it.
Hurt turns to anger. And my words were "I'm done". Done with worrying, thinking, doing, for everyone else.
So, here I was in the middle of creating a page when he walks in and once he tell me he heard I was mad but didn't know why...I went off. Called him a self centered, elitest brat and that anything that he doesn't consider importatnt isn't. I think shock is a good way to describe the look on his face. But he agreed.. and brought up having a baby. YEAH, that doesn't work with me anymore. I had 3 by his age and neither of our families knew of our struggles and I dealt with whatever came my way. With that we started talking..the whole time I'm working and talking. He looked around and said that he always supported my endeavors. Well.....he is right. He has always encouraged me. But to figure after a long day at work..I have nothing to do????..makes me nuts. He agreed he has been an ass and disrespectful.
I finished the page and kept it..... as a reminder. That my time counts.
Where's the change????
All within the same week....Hubby starts working days ( overnights for past 5 years) and our daughter moves back home in order to afford school.
Have to keep saying..
my time counts
my time counts
my time counts
Ahhhh but maybe it will feel like we are newlyweds... after almost 30 yrs.
Gotta smile
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