This is a first for me. So fear did not enter in the equation...yet. I had other projects going on at the same time and working overtime at my regular job.
WHAT WAS I THINKING????
The countdown:
Week 4..... nothing
Week 3... I start looking around my studio at what I have to work with. Are you kidding me??? I have an art supply store here!! So I first decide on 12 4x4 canvases I had other plans for. I did a quick wash and layered some paint and scraps of paper. Grabbed some canvas fabric and did a quick wash of watercolors on that... grabbed a 10x10 canvas I had painted and drawn previously for another project and made changes to that...
OK...got nothing
Week 2...Still no fear , no nerves acting up.
I add different paper to fabric and have a great idea on what to do. Work on the 4x4's..have great idea for that and go for it. Add more layers to the 10x10.
Week 1 and counting down the days....Patina the clothespins for the fabric canvas. Start mold for my knife on the 4x4's. And start on layers of tar gel.
Add more paint to that and add more layers of paint to 10x10.
Chaos and nerves set in...
The mold of my knife did not turn out like I saw it in my head. Even after I painted it...nope didn't work. Crap!!! what to do?? Paint I had planned on using for the tar gel isn't right... Fly over to Dick Blicks, get right color..just in case I get another shade too. Add that... ok, I'm happy.
But the whole point was the knife...now I'm sweating it.
Doubt begins to settle in and the inner critic is screaming at me... "What were you thinking??? Your stuff doesn't belong there". I start to freak out. Call Luniladi and as always she encourages me and says just the right things. She emails me at work everyday with encouraging words. God I love her!!
Day 5... I am told when I can come over with artwork.
Day 4.... I am told I need to have info about my work.
Crap I have nothing!!! Mind is a blank... I freeze. MAJOR FREAK OUT
Day 3...no time, DH and kids look at my stuff, DH says he doesn't get it...not to say its bad... just doesn't get it.
Day 2.... Finish fabric piece and hate it, The 4x4 need something... have no clue what that something is.
The 10x 10 is at least done and I'm ok with it.
Get my hair cut and done which was waaaay overdue. At least I'll look cute if my artwork sux.
Go out for dinner with DH to celebrate our 28th anniversary, have martinis with dinner on an empty stomach and needless to say the rest of my evening didn't go as planned. We wanted to keep the night going ...it was a beautiful night... but I was zonked out by 10. Jeez I'm a fun date!! Well I was.. till the last of the martini was gone and I realized oops... bad idea
DAY 1... I had taken Thursday and Friday off. BIL comes in from out of town for exhibit and show and an appt. Monday before he goes back home. Surprise my Tias with a visit with Desi, drop Desi back off and Start to seriously freak out.
Well at least I'm done with my 3 pieces.
DAY OF EXHIBIT: Wake up before the roosters, freaking out. I want to throw up. Sit in my studio looking around. My eyes focus on a paper mache hand and another canvas next to it..
I have this vision for the hand and the canvas that kinda unifies the 4x4 canvas and the 10x10. I start working. Pulled out the heat gun to rush the drying time..
I don't think I've ever used my heat gun so much at one time!!
My hubby comes in and says that by looking at my art, people are gonna think our marriage sux. We laugh and I see what he means. I don't even know where this comes from cause after 28 yrs we still have fun together.
It 11am and I'm done! As happy as I can be with inner critic buzzing in my ear. Call Luniladi to tell her what I did.. she even thinks I'm nuts for changing my mind...but again very encouraging.
I still need to name my pieces and my mind won't cooperate. call Damien figuring since he write lyrics he can help. "I got nothing, sorry"
He comes by to pick up equipment and looks over my finished work. Smiles and says the 4x4's look like a Bon Jovi song and laughs.
Finally have a plan and take quick pics before I head out the door. They didn't turn out great and I totally forgot to take pics at the gallery. Dummy me.
Lost Souls
Disillusion
Lost
Thanks alot Bon Jovi
After all was said and done..It was a success.
I had people come up to me that have known me for years that had no idea I did this and they liked it, or those that found out it was mine after someone else told them. It was great meeting new people that enjoyed what I did.
And the best part???
My hubby of 28 yrs comes up to me and says.. "WOW.. being up on a wall with other peoples art.... It looks great! on the floor in your room doesn't even compare"
That put a smile on my face...He finally gets it!
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